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| I started my journey as human in the night of the 14th of
december in 1971 in a small city in the eastern part of Germany, at
that time a socialistic country called "German Democratic
Republic" (short G.D.R.). I had a fulfilled and so to speak
"happy" childhood and my parents introduced me to a lot of different
activities and hobbies and i enjoyed doing. I was always a very creative person and wanted to do and have things my very own way... however, i was and i am able to adjust to any situation if needed. For example as teenager i was designing and sewing some clothes with th ehelp of my mum. I loved to draw, paint, designed my own letter paper and envelopes for sending to my penfriends and much more... I was a very shy and closed child and when i was a teenager i started to open up. It was my believe at that time that nobody likes me and that what i have to say is not important. And because of that believe i was behaving in a way to convince myself that this belief is real and i did not have any real good friend nor a boyfriend and i did not like this situation. At that time i did not even know that i could change that, i believed that it is the way it is. Any kind of "Selfhelp" books were unknown at that time in the G.D.R. In G.D.R. it was usual to go 10 years to school and then to do an apprenticeship for 2 or 3 years and after that to work in that profession until you can get pension... So i had to decide what profession i would like to learn... and the only thing that feels right for me because i would enjoy doing it, was to work at the post-office which was just some minutes to walk to and because i was so much in love with penpalling at that time i just wanted to do something with letters... and so i did that and was working at the post-office later on, even on the counter where i had to talk with people and i was afraid of that in the beginning but i was willing to give it a try and after i did it the fear disappeared. While i was doing my apprenticeship, on the 9th of November 1989 they opened the borders in Berlin and later teared down the Berlin Wall and i got to know about selfhelp books and bought some because i wanted to change my shy behaviour and i had the vision that everybody likes me and enjoy being around me and that i have a boyfriend and that there are always men who would like me as partner :) And as i look back this vision came true and is still valid. After the 2 years of apprenticeship i continued to work there at the main post office in my past hometown but then they often sent me to other post-offices around to replace somebody which i enjoyed as well. However, the idea that i would work there for the next 40 years felt wrong and not valid for me, and i had a vision to live and work in "West Germany" where years ago i suspected to be the Paradise because it seemed that people can buy everything they desire which was not possible in the G.D.R. until East and West Germany was unified on 3rd of October 1990. Well, in G.D.R. we were very limited. Many things were not possible to do, for example we could only travel in other socialistic countries and i remember that when i was a teeny i always wanted to be invisible and to cross the boarders and go and get whatever i wish to. Another thing was that we only got imported fruits like bananas, oranges and peaches in very limited amounts like 5 pieces per buyer...and you could not just go in a shop and buy them because they only came now and then. You needed to know somebody who tells you and probably keep it for you or if you walked through town and saw a queue/line somewhere you did know that there is something "special" and rare to get and you had to hurry to go in the line as well if you wanted to get it as well :) But that was not with fruits alone, it was with other things as well, like clothes and so on... And to get a car you had to wait for 10 - 20 years and it were only the cars made in G.D.R. or other socialistic countries around like Trabant, Wartburg...Skoda. However, besides these "limitations" there were some so called "positive" things as well: There was no unemployment, everybody had a work, although some people did not really had to do something at that work place but they got paid althrough.. The rent and food for daily life was very cheap and you always had enough to eat and never had to worry about how to pay the rent and about where the money will come from. But you had to save money for something that was very expensive like a new TV or radio recorder or something like that... Well, after opening the boarders i visited West Berlin together with my brother who is living in East Berlin in 1989 and in 1990 we visited my aunt and uncle near Munich and spent some hours in Munich as well... it was an exciting time ! A surprise i got in January 1991 when they asked us at the post-office if we would like to work in West Germany for 1 year, firstly 3 months probation to see if we like it and then we could stay for the year or maybe longer... of course that was my chance to leave my kinda boring hometown in May 1991 and started my exciting life in Munich. Immedately i felt familiar with this amazing city and never thought of going back, only for a short visit. Firstly i lived in a boarding home owned by the Post-Office right in the city center and started to explore more and more of all the new stuff which was available now, especially things which helped me grow on a personal level and to explore everything mysterious i felt attracted all my life already and i continued there now as i saw how much infos there are accessible... In 1992 i learnt about Reiki and did the 1st and the 2nd grade and i was reading a lot of different personal growth material and about that our reality is only an illusion and that we create it every moment and so on... it was all very interesting what i explored in that time between 1992 and 1999 and i myself was changing all the time after applying the new knowledge but i felt that there were still missing some pieces because it did not work for me the way i expected it to do... in the meantime i went through some more or less challenging experiences in my love life and work life and i almost stopped my search for spiritual growth since i was busy with working at this time... Then i did not wanted to have any
relationship anymore and i spent my most exciting holidays ever
in summer 1999 where i was invited to meet my 2 female penfriends
from two caribbean island called St. Vincent and
St. Lucia. It may appear "dangerous" to go as an
attractive young woman there alone but i was not afraid at any
time, i felt that there is "a higher power" there to
protect me and keep danger away from
me... To find out more about my mentors and what i learnt continue to read the awesome links or visit my other websites below... If you want to contact me use the form on the main page.
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